Speak softly and carry a big gun
You can’t be my devil anymore
I can’t be your good deed
Awakened by the silence
Rebirth found in the ruins
When you say you want to feel something, be specific, because pain is something altogether different
I am busy being insane
And unreasonably paranoid
She loved like she lived, dangerously, with a bit of fear and a bit of hope.
Trouble, he was, and she was reckless with want.
Always giving chase
For moments that stand still
Is it too much to ask to be your poetry
And
The lust you crave when you wake
A trunk full of bodies and the ghosts that would haunt me
Last night I dreamt you kissed me, softly, passionately, in quiet places that now roar to feel your shameless lust
The narrative in my head and trying to write what I am feeling is too discombobulated
Intoxicated by the kisses from stars that shimmer like beating hearts.
We should stand here and bleed
Into the sky
And forests
Like the ripples in the ocean
Like ancient stories
Yet to be told
It is my river of thought that holds the most dangers for me to drown.
Give me fire and passion, urgency and the rawness of letting go so my soul is suspended in midair.
My demons surrender to my apathy too easily
Bisect into limbs, not parts
In the gardens by light of the moon
The air screamed or maybe it was me
Muscles aching I crawl to him from the tent into the chill evening air, starving like my ribs are breaking
Returning to a sleep of centuries, once my appetite is satiated
Silent revelations by the embers of a flickering campfire
Bedfellows of privilege
Taste sweeter when earned
There are those, we don’t care what they do or say
We love them anyway
I wish I could bleed the words I feel, words never feel enough
I’ve cut myself a thousand times trying to collect the shattered pieces of my heart.
And still I cannot hate you
She is flesh and blood
And a fool
He deprives me a sane existence
His whispers of eating me alive with sinful kisses
I am left to confess my madness
Tracing the lines
Carving pieces of me away
Like bone, ivory and jade
Sinuous and undulating
A raw love
Unfettered of societal impositions and intrusion
Honest, pure, deep
And illuminated by only the stars
To love
Is to lose yourself every day
And find your soul
Without exception in every moment
Like any starving beast
You must feed your love
For yourself, to yourself
then
For others
Sometimes I remember everything about you
And I feel particularly stabby with a lil bit cleaver and hell of a lot of flamethrower
Maybe you were never you
And I was never me
If we can’t visit graveyards together, it’s never going to work
I don’t want to be calm anymore
I am here to raise hell
And be swept up furiously by the currents in the Rivers of Hades
Paper hearts stay suspended in the broken in-betweenness
Mutual fascination, mischief and sensuality
Over and over
I delicately wrap the ravaged bleeding beast
In ribbons and bows
And place the exquisite toy in your hands
That moment just before the first wave of desire consumes you, where you stop breathing and everything else ceases to exist
Take me there
Which one of us wasn’t broken somewhere in between
On feathered wing I soar
From the shadows I reach
Like silence falling I sink
Whispers the wind
I’ll give you the knife to carve away the pain in my heart, and write your name with the love that drips from the blade
Tears of penance tumbling into the wishing well of hope
I wonder if I gave in to this constant need to crack open this cage and tear through the skin and be free to come and go as I please, would I?
And what of hope
I’m still crying over the death of my heart
Shattered illusions
I don’t give in to you, I surrender to you
Windmills and ghosts in my mind
Promises and other hollow creatures
I can cut you into pieces when my heart is, broken
A master of my feelings, words and poetry
In an alternate universe
My fingers drag slowly
The way your lips used to
And I sigh your name
Staying too long
Lingering in all the everything
The mornings after you
Release me again
All these moments
All these words
Standing on the edge
of my lips
Forgetting to fall
The distraction you want
Is blooming and becoming
The distraction you need
Exquisite little deaths
Give them all to me
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