I had been here before
amongst the wreckage of people
with their drunk hearts and empty souls
mindless chatter and phony smiles
making their way through the crowd
hoping to find a reprieve, a glimpse of themselves in another’s
challenged eyes and reckless
banter
had I also not wanted to be there
to live inside another’s eyes
to be kept safe
to feel fleeting joy and hungered for approval
for I too had wished away my anonymity
I too had sold my soul
and as I looked around
feeling little of what I needed
for what I wanted would not be found here
a sense of not belonging
discontent and dejectedly out of place
to bide my time I bleated on with the sheep
and then
in a swift and glorious moment I walked away
I would not be angry with myself
I would not be angry with them
I would simply be
looking back I now know
that this is where I found myself
I will be good
I will be strong
I will endure
I had found peace
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