I’m all over the place. I can’t clue in to focus on one specific emotion about it. Maybe it’s the serotonin. I just don’t know what I feel. I am clinging to hope, an idea, perhaps even a delusion. But I remain steady, talking myself down and keeping a cool head. I am excited and, I’m also nervous. Maybe once away from work, clarity will reveal itself. This is a big fucking deal. I am also trying to focus on wins. I’m thinking this will be a win.