It's been some time, since I've penned a thought here. I have a multitude of things to say, just not a lot of time to sit and give my mind over to the writing. I was blocked by my own life, I guess. Having re-read some of my last posts, I decided it was time to include some positive notes.
For a moment things were on a downward spiral. It was in truth, a domino effect. A whispered and wise voice said if it's meant to be, just let go - if it's love, it will come back. It did. I'm happier than I've been in a long time. Seeing things through a child's eyes, being grateful for all the little things and loving with no holds barred. For the first time I have companionship and honesty. Pain and misery no longer have their talons deep in my heart. I've learned to love again, I've learned to forgive. Things aren't perfect, but they're close enough. No longer do I subscribe to bitterness and empty promises. Romantic comedies are just that for me now. I have true romance and life is what you make of it. So I laugh often.
My heart is free and I feel so very loved. Things move at their own pace and there's no need to force anything. We are like children. We giggle, we love, we set our own rules, it's unorthodox - but it's fulfilling. It's been a little over a year and trust me when I say we've come a long way. There will always be both good and bad, but right now things are good. They're really, really good. ...and I am happy. So I take it one day at a time. We steal what little time we can and we make the most of it.
I'm still me, more so than I've been in a very long time. I find ways to balance my busy life. I try to stay grounded and optimistic at every opportunity. I'm fully aware that life won't always be daisies and tulips, that roses also have thorns. I have no more delusions of an ideal life. I know there's ups and downs. I will face them all head on, as I've always done... Right now I have a lot to be thankful for because I love my life. And it helps the soul to call upon the things in life that make you smile. Memories, laughter, love, family and friends.
